År 2016 i backspegeln

Nu är det den tiden på året när man skall försöka blicka bakåt och summera året som gått med ord. Det är inte det lättaste! Nedan är några av reflektionerna som jag tar med mig från året.

Gott nytt år till er alla.

Träning

Vilket fantastiskt träningsår det har varit. Jag har tränat riktigt hårt och har verkligen lagt alla de där extra timmar i gymmet och i sadeln. Jag har blivit mycket bättre och nått mina mål för 2016, nu blickar vi framåt och tar fram nya spännande mål för 2017. En liten shoutout till  en av mina topp tränings kompisar Helena som också nämns i filmen ovan, vi har sammanstrålat många gånger tack vare Happy Ride communityn.

I filmen kan man även se lite av min statistik från Strava, ja jag är en Strava knarkare. Statistiken är bara från tiden i sadeln, jag antar att jag har ca 90 timmar med regelbunden gym pass också.

Jag är riktigt stolt och glad över mina resultat i år!

Jag har köpt nya cyklar och har ansökt om en tävlingslicens för att ta min cykel-karriär längre under 2017. Jag längtar redan efter att få komma ut och tävla, träffa och hänga med alla fantastiska cykel personligheter runt om i Sverige.

Familj

Detta år har varit riktigt speciell på många sätt, sätt jag inte vill skriva om här. Det fina är att relationerna med min familj och barn har blivit mycket bättre under 2016. Jag försöker också att prioritera att vara mer med barn / familj, vilket känns bra.

Jag har försökt börjat prata mer och försöka att uttrycka all rädsla och ångest som har haft hängande över mig detta år. Ja, jag har haft ett riktigt mörkt och hårt år.

Jag har också vuxit i år och börjat lyssna mer på mig själv och min familj, det är en positiv effekt. Jag har anammat mindfullness och kommer att arbeta med att återuppbygga min självkänsla under 2017.

Arbete

I förra årets årskrönika skrev jag att jag skulle byta arbetsplats under januari, bytet till GDM visade det sig vara ett riktigt dåligt val och jag har inte alls blivit väl behandlad av varesig chefer, medarbetare eller bolaget i stort.

Jag vill inte skriva om det så utförligt här men det var ett riktigt dumt drag som har påverkat mig hela året och har varit den främsta orsaken till min depression och att jag mått dåligt.

Jag har nu sagt upp mig från min nuvarande position och jag hoppas att framtiden kommer att bli bättre.

Jag hoppas veeerkligen att 2017 kommer bli MITT år.

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2015 Year in review

It’s time to summarize this year, the year of 2015. A lot of things have happened during this year and i will try to keep it short under a couple of headlines below.

Training

This year has been all about me and about starting to feel and perform better. I have felt that I couldn’t keep up with myself and all the things i wanted to do during 2014. I have had the ”need to train” thought for a long time but never set down my foot and starting to workout, mostly because of lack of knowledge within training and being lazy. I think many people can relate to this scenario.

During the end of 2014 I started following some athletes and interesting local sports persons on social media and got some inspiration and got pushed to actually sign up for a gym and head out for bike rides myself, they all made it seem so easy so why couldn’t I also be an ”athlete”.

Said and done, during the first couple of days in January a new gym opened 50 meters from my home, I signed up and started to train in the gym, it was to close to be lazy. I gained knowledge and self esteem by seeking information and inspiration online.

I found myself getting good results and feeling a lot better in a short period of time. During the first couple months I barely could stand on a crosstrainer or run more that couple of meter without getting really high pulse and have to stop and catch my breath but it keeps getting better.

Right after the winter, when all snow melted away I put out the bike from the garage and started to ride by myself. At first i found it a bit boring but with some good music in my ears and some challenging routes around my neighborhood i got a hang of it.

I have always been fond of cycling and always wanted to get to train and compete in cycling and MTB in particular, so during the year i bought new bikes and signed up for a couple of races. As you all may have read already the first races were not so good performance wise, but I gained a lot of experience and got to see how other people train and compete.

I competed in a couple of MTB races around Jämtland. I have gotten better during the year, with every race new experiences and knowledge was gained and I feel really comfortable to continue this newly found love next year.

The main goal was set to enter and finish the Cycle Vasalopp (cykelvasan). During August I competed and raced the 95 km at a time of 4:16. Not that great in comparison to all the high-end cyclists but once again i did it and have something to beat next year now that i know what its all about and have more time and knowledge to prepare.

During the later half of the year, after summer, I was a bit afraid to loose the great training i was experiencing but I kept going and trained both cycling and at the gym.

I got in touch with a local group of people called ”Happyride Östersund” thanks to some of the local MTB people I follow and get inspired by. These people deserves a shout-out as they are great people and great inspiration, thanks Helena and Hasse.

The group contains a lot of people with Cycle interest that get together to train and discuss cycling. I have gained a lot of new friends and really think this is an awesome way of keeping the happiness in training and cycling.

I couldn’t have been more happy with my decision to start training and pursue the dream of being a cyclist. I have gone from overweight to normal (95 to 77kg) and it feels great to have lost almost 18kg during 2015! I cant wait to get out there in 2016 and get better results and cycle even more.

Family

This year I have started to care and involve myself a bit more in the family life. Not that i dint do this before but other years have been more about work and making a good living by making a lot of money to get and having the family floating.

But when MÃ¥ns was born I decided to dedicate my time to the family and start taking care about my relations within the family and also in friendships. I have still worked a lot this year so I cannot really say that I achieved my goals in this area. I will try to fetch them during 2016 instead.

But to summarize; I have gotten a bit better during the year, having a proper vacation and starting to be a better family father and a respectful husband.

I think the fact that I started training and taking better care of myself have reflected on my family life and i also have stopped working so much and started to say no to things have made up time to spend with family.

We had a really nice time going to Mallorca for vacation this year. I wish we could go back as it was really really nice. We have to wait a bit more and go again the fall of 2016.

Work

The last year of work have been a really though and hard for me. I have been really unhappy with my work, been feeling depressed and sad almost every day going to work.

So i have signed for a new job starting in the begining of January. I hope it will bring me back the fire and happiness.

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Happy Christmas

Happy Christmas to all my followers! I celebrated the christmas morning by taking an early bike ride this morning with bike and headlight around Lockne Lake (approx. 65km)
Its a really nice ride and one can see spectacular views during the sunrise, i got filled with energy and christmas spirit during the ride. Snow, great weather and happy people all around.

Have a great day all bike fanatics, hope for some hard packages this Christmas.

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Vemdalen Bike Challenge

Today the family headed to Vemdalen for a competition called Vemdalen Bike challenge.
I raced in the 22km category along with up on Vemdalsskalet, in the cross county tracks around Vemdalen. It was a 10 km long track that was repeated two times.

It had rained the day before the race so there was a lot of water in the pits. It was intense and lot of climbs in the tracks. It fitted me perfectly but i had hard competitors. I got here thinking it wouldn’t be so many elite runners but i had mistaken, all the familiar faces where there which was fun but i hadn’t expected it.

Ebba also raced in the children category. She was very proud afterwards and got some candy and a price from the raffle.

After everyone had finished there was a lot of prices to hand out, everyone got a price and that is really nice and not often seen on competitions.

it was a really nice race and i finished a place 17 out of 32 in my category (only men), 19 of 42 (women and men)

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Ebba has learned to cycle

I’m so proud. My little girl has finally learned to cycle on her own without support wheels. We went to the local soccer field to kick some ball and train on cycling. It took one try and then she made it on here own.

After that we trained to start in inclined terrain and to stop and adjust speed. Now she masters it all and have spent the afternoon on the bike. I think she is as proud as here father.

We celebrated with ice-cream, yummy!

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Downhill, training and going around Lofssjön

This weekend me and the family have been in Lofsdalen, in my in laws cabin. I have been running down Lofsdalen Bike Park on Saturday an today i have been pedaling around the lake ”Lofssjön”. afterward i took a 25 km run to Glöte for some coffee with the family.

Two amazing days with training and fun activities an surpassingly good weather. Not a bad way to start my vacation period.

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Spin of Hope

Today I have been participating in an event called Spin of hope. The event is for raising money an awareness around Child cancer. You as a person or company can buy a spinning bike and then keep it running for 24 hours, then employees can sign up for the sessions (around 1 hour a piece) all money is donated to Child Cancer Fund (barncancerfonden)

The company i work for did this and we where a couple of persons that got together and powered the bike all day. I ran two sessions and it was a good feeling both during and after. Workout and getting to do something for the cause.

I really like events like this were one can help out and contribute to the research and cause.

Thanks to Fristilen for hosting this event

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Signed up for another gym

I have been training at Gym24 now for a while. It’s really convenient to have a gym nearby so i easily can go out at night to train or when i have som spare time. Its near my home but i have tried to workout in the city (where i work) during my lunch hours and that suits me aswell so i signed up for a contract at http://www.sportsgym.nu.

I also have some colleagues that work out there so i sometimes have someone to train with. There is also a lot more people at this gym. Meeting new people is always nice.

The contract also allows me to train at the bath house in the city. as you know i have kids and the love to bath and the entrance fee is quite high. This allows me to use my gym membership to also go and swim with my children. Combining work(out) and pleasure.

Training is going really well, i have set out a goal to loose 15 kg for my birthday (last of may) and i’m doing good progress.

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En son är född

Några av er vet redan att vi har idag fick vårt andra barn. Det blev en liten pojke den här gången.

Denna födelse var inte lika intensivt som när vi hade Ebba. Men vi kämpade ändå lite för att få ut honom. Det visade sig att han hade navelsträngen runt halsen och övervakningsnivåerna sjönk under förlossningen.

Men trots allt gick det bra och vi hade stort stöd under hela processen från alla fantastiska barnmorskor och läkare på Östersund sjukhus. Jag fick chansen att klippa navelsträngen här gången.

Vi kommer att kalla honom Måns.

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A daughter is born

I’m so happy and a bit overwhelmed. Today my daughter was born after an intensive morning/day.

She came almost one month to early and had asphyxia when she came out due to something neither we or the doctors could explain. To be honest it’s kind of a blur to talk about this but the clear memory of this day will stick forever.

I had to follow the doctors as they ran from the birth room out to the ”resuscitation” room. She did not breath on her own and after a couple of minutes of heart massage and oxygen she started to manage on her own. When she was stable we went to say help to the mother and then we went up to the neonatal department.

The doctors was a bit pensive about her getting some kind of damage to the brain as she had the asphyxia for so long. they were talking about flying to UmeÃ¥ and cooling her down if the examination was showing any signs of damage. as of now, they don’t see anything that indicate this. We will probably stay here at neonatal for a couple of days for further monitoring.

As you all understand it has been a long day and i really can’t write/talk about everything here.

We will probably call her Ebba.

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